Something is not right with Me

"Sometimes I wish we were never friends.
Sometimes I wish we were only friends with eachother.
Sometimes I wish I had never met you.
Sometimes I wish I was you, completely you, all you.
Sometimes I hate you.
Sometimes i hate you and love you all at once, at the same time.
Sometimes, I wish you never existed,
Sometimes I forget, but never for long. All you have to do is exist to make me remember."

Tired.
Not going to basketball.
Have to get up to go meet someone, but really can't be bothered.
I might just stay here in bed and hide under the covers with my stuffed toys, like I used to do when I was little.
Maybe if I get deep enough I won't have to hear them shouting.