Lets make lists lists are fun.
Caitlins list of 4 depressing thoughts she had just now.
- It's funny cos I'm worried that you hate me but I don't want to talk about it because if I do I think you'll hate me for real, so I'll just freak out about you on my own because I like avoiding things at all costs, except I hate avoiding things too.
- I want to have these deep conversations but deep conversations scare me a little and i never know what to say and they make me feel like I'm drowning. The waters too deep and i never was a very strong swimmer.
- Maybe I should create another blog nobody knows about where I don't have to talk in code in case somebody reads it and I can just say whatever the hell I want without worrying you'll judge me for it or I'll seem suicidal or lame or whatever you find uncool.
- I'm kinda sick of pleasing people and wanting people to like me and I'm worried its going to make me alone and I'm mostly worried I'm not going to care.
Okay, I'm allowed one depressing blog post a week right? It's winter, winter is sad. Sad winter makes for sad caitlin and cold caitlin.
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