I don't stand a chance in this fucked up world. New school took romance and messed it up real bad.

I've been kicked out of the bottom story of my house because random russians are painting there (isnt is always russians? why is that?) so yeah bored. LIST TIME!?

Ten things that came from my head:

1: Allamericanantichrist on tumblr told me I was amazing. It made my life because I like it when other people see I'm a genius and it isn't just me. Because then I start thinking I'm not as godly as I am in my head. Thats a joke, I don't think I'm godly. God doesn't exist. I'm more world leaderish.
2: There is not one friend that I have from Carey that I like more than my friends out of Carey. There used to be, but yeah there aren't anymore. And I realise this every single time I see them. My non Carey friends I mean. And thats really depressing somehow. Except I guess I'm glad I have them because otherwise I'd go INSANE! -hysterical laughter-
4: I used to feel like crying all the time. Now I feel like laughing. Except not in quiet, oh hoho this is amusing way, in a hysterical way. Like the way you laugh when you're about to get hung. Like, 'oh I'm about to die mose well laugh or say some deep profound one liner like ned kelly.' What did he say again? Oh yeah. Such is Life. Cool dude.
5: I feel like I should be angry, or worried, or sad or something about the fact that my mum pretty much lives in canberra now. But I'm not. At all really. And I guess I should be since its kind of destroyed our relationship and our family foundations, but whatever. Such is life, as ned kelly said. Plus she's really annoying so its kind of good to have the house to myself.
6: I've had a really, really good holiday. Especially Lorne and Bawley. And now I'm kind of really freaked out about going back to school because I know how sad going to school makes me. And how sad all the people at school make me. Actually they dont make me sad, just bored. I'm not really sad about anything anymore. I'm just bored. And like, bemused. LIke I don't really care. It's kinda cool and weird.
7: I am so so so ridiculously excited about the two day sleepover weekend thing I'm having with Tully and Tenzin next weekend. Tully and Tenzin are great. Like, they kind of make up for the lack of people I'm close with at Carey. Because I've known them all my life and yeah, seeing them makes me feel relaxed and all zen.
8: I do not want to go on camp this year. At all. Not only do I hate camp with a burning passion, (especially the stupid, 'ohhhmagawdd lets get in touch with NATURE! stuff, and LETS SIT BY THE BONFIRE AND HAVE A GOOD OLD TALK ABOUT LIFE AND HOW MUCH BETTER AS PEOPLE THIS TRIP HAS MADE US!' shit,) but i feel like this years camp will be worse somehow. Much worse.

PS: Sorry for the Carey hate. Kinda not really.