So sue me

And I've felt alone.
And lost.
And surrounded
And hated.
And loved.
I've gone swimming at 12 o clock at night on new years eve.
And I've wanted to kiss a stupid amount of people.
Without ever doing anything.

But I've also had hour long conversations with my mum late at night
And I've gone on walks by the river to collect flowers
I've sat on the porch with my grandma and listened to her stories
I've played chess with my aunty for a month straight
I've listened to Mozart and liked it
I've watched ABC british dramas and been intrigued
I've played 'war' in the pool with my cousins every summer for years,
And I've spent days doing nothing but read and laze in the sun,
I've visited my 70 year old friend every week in the summer and she's taught me to paint,
I've read famous five at night when I'm scared or sad,
I've forgotten what school feels like,
I've forgotten what teenagers feel like,
I've sat at family dinner parties that last till 2 in the morning and enjoyed myself,
I've danced with my dad to the blues,
I've dreamed.
I've loved my parents,

I'm acting my age. I'm not acting my age. I'm being myself. And I'm not being myself.
And if you don't like me, thats okay.
Because I know, out there, people care about me.
And my family care about me. And I don't care if thats uncool. Because I love them.
And I can admit that these days.
I can admit a lot of things.