I do love you, honestly.

I am sorry that you can accept me but cannot join me.
I am sorry that you cannot be immature, for whatever reason.

I am sorry there are people in my life that want to be weird, that want to do stupid things and play guitar and sing and dance and make a fool of themselves, people that I can laugh with and be myself around, and for some reason, I cant be like that with you anymore. Maybe its because when I am, you don't do it too. It's like being alone.
I am sorry that I still find you awesome even when I think this.

Stifled. Choking. Everyone at Carey is the same these days.
Why do people have to go through everything they think or say to check for whether its cool or not?
Why is being cool important?
Ynow what I've learned? Being an outcast is more fun. Because then at least you can do whatever you want without wondering whether your friends will laugh at you or tell you you're 'weird.'
Like I honestly give a fuck.
Boring people can go be boring.
I'll never remember you all anyway.