Me: its just like
i never got ANY attention
from ANY one
in the WORLD
until like 2 terms ago
and then it ALL came at once
Tenzin: same with me
except with friends
I and coolness
wow
well
Me: yeah yeah.
i get you
Tenzin: there goes that coolness
Me: no its there
its there for certain
Tenzin: you know what Caitlin?
Me: indeed
Tenzin: you kinda brought us together a little
Me: oh?
Tenzin: like, Tul and I were never this close
or this open
Me: really?!? i was never this wonderfully close with tully either
Tenzin: or this, I dunno, happy?
Me: SAME
like before lorne i was kinda depressive
Tenzin: like, I love my friends at school and all
Me; but yeah lorne was a turning point
Tenzin: but, sometimes people leave me feeling worse about myself rather than better
and you guys sorta leave me grinning
Me: YEAH EXACTLY. like i think its different with me but i dont feel the same sort of connection
like sometimes when i see some other people.
its an effort, like i feel like i should do it, but with you guys i want to
Tenzin: yesh!
and I feel happy after just reading the comments on photos and stuff
Me: yeah yeah!
Tenzin: and some of the old jokes still actually make me laugh, like properly laugh
Me: I KNOW OMG!
the comments are kinda hilarious
Tenzin: I don't think I've ever been anywhere near this funny before
Me: neither have i! its just like all this confidence has come from nowhere
Tenzin: and I actually don't even give a crap about what anyone else thinks anymore
because you guys are always there
Me: EXACTLY! i just care what people i care about think
like people might think i'm weird but im beyond caring
because with other people it was like, i was consantly on edge, having to please everyone
Tenzin: and that's why I was thinking.
because I thought I didn't have this anymore
Me: yeah i know what you mean. i dont want stuff to change
Tenzin: and then today made me so happy
because everything was kinda normal and Tully and Logan were lovely.
Me: yeah it really was. And they really are.
Tenzin: I think so too.
I just kinda love logan anyway
Me: yeah. hes affable
Tenzin: is it bad that I had to look up 'affable'?
Me: no. its just me being moderately nerdy
Tenzin: I love you caitlin cassidy
as I love Tully berry
Me: and you tenzin casey waters.
and logan penney
Tenzin: and even mr lovesick lolgan penney
Me: and even mr nick gooch
why not
Tenzin: because he hates aaron
no
Me: no? no nick gooch?
Tenzin: nick gooch makes me feel awkward
Me: well. i like him then.
i dont mind his presence.
Tenzin: he doesn't really have the same effect you guys have
he sorta makes me cringe
Me: this is true. but i dont mind him as a friend in the background
hanging round every moon or so
Tenzin: he's fine in the background
yeah
every now and then
Me: every moon
every solar eclipse
Tenzin: but I've never looked at a comment he's made and grinned from ear to ear and been proud to call him my friend
and felt the need to call one of them
*him
Me: thats incredibly true.
YEAH! I ACTUALLY CALL YOU GUYS! I NEVER CALLED OTHERS!
Tenzin: or organise to hang out with him
Me: still on nick gooch. okay. i can deal.
Tenzin: sorry
I was writing that when you said the thing before
but yeah
Me: and then we got confused
Tenzin: I've never called, like, someone else out of the blue and gone 'I wrote a song! Come over! I need your presence to feel pretty and funny again'
Me: yeah exactly. i cant just randomly go to other friends houses
it just doesnt happen
Tenzin: oh no! we're being as cheesy as tul and logan!.
oh well
I love you
I love us
Me: OH WELL! WHO CARES!
I MISS US!
BUT I DONT! COS US IS HERE!
Tenzin: us is now!
us is forever!
Me: US NEVER DIES!
...too far?
maybe
Tenzin: nah
US WILL CONQUER THEM!
Me: ITS LIKE
IN THAT MOVIE
set in america in like the 60's
about those 4 kids
best friends
who went on a trip together
and they were only 12
and when the guy was old
like 60
he said he'd grown apart from the 12 year olds since
but he's never had a friendship that strong
as ones from childhood
Tenzin: except we're 14
and hopefully be friends well into young adulthood
Me: yeah but. the message is the same
friendships you make when you're like our age are strong
and like
good
generally
...And I just felt the need to post it because it made my night/life.
We're corny but it's okay cos we're special.
Note: All jokes directed at logans lovesickness were for larf only. Also love for logan is brotherly not in any way, shape, or form sexual. If logan is reading this, hullo logan. How are you? Keeping well? Staying fit? One would hope so!
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