who gives a shit.

I think I'm going to go for a walk to shake myself out of this shitty depressive mood.
Just had an amazingly deep conversation with logan that i'd like to continue here where barely anyone reads what i'm saying.

It's just the small problem that most of society are volatile and horrible human beings. what a wonderful point to conclude to.
and everyone that isnt some vindictive odious individual are stereotyped as outcasts and freaks who have to have miserable lives because they make the asinine mistake of being themselves and, hey, actually being slightly affable. maybe its just that some people hide their pleasantness very well. or they're all just vain and self obsessed and deluded into thinking they're the most wonderful, exciting people on the planet when its painfully apparent they've never had a deep thought in their life. most people just spend their teen years thinking about girls, or boys, or both, heck i dont give a shit, and maybe occasionally dragging themselves from sexual fantasies to ponder on their popularity before not being bothered doing anything remotely meaningful with their lives. it just pisses me off sometimes. that we dumb ourselves down and do stupid, irrational things because we don't want to be labelled as a nerd or a weirdo or any of that. or maybe people genuinely are dumb. and then i write blogs like this and people look at me like i'm some freak of nature, because, hey, i'm not happy all the time, and i'm not going to just 'chill out and stop overthinking.' maybe i want to use my fucking brain and question things. and maybe i'm sick of nobody living up to my expectations because underneath it all, theres fucking nothing there.
theres just nothing there.
nothing but an untenanted mind and trivial, vacant conversation.
how empty it all seems.
and what a desolate world we live in.